I have learned many things since publishing me book and website several years ago. I learned how innocent I was to the ways of the world, I was silly to believe that I could change the world suddenly with my book and message about freeing women’s sexuality from male based religions and government rule. These structures based on the worship of male gods, male power and male archetypes have been in place for 1000s and 1000s of years and so it will take many more years and even centuries for humanity to evolve past these concepts that are causing the self destruction of humanity and this earthly realm. Most people have less than average intelligence at best and many people are brainwashed or too programmed into these belief systems and cultures to know how sick it is actually making them.
I realize now that I have been fighting a loosing battle and that I lost the beauty of myself and my own divinity from time to time in the battle. I have been needlessly combating when I should of just sheathed my sword and stopped casting my pearls upon swine. I am humblingly addmitting that my spiritual guides told me that fame and all that comes with it were never to be mine; that was the spiritual agreement that I made long before coming to this earthly realm; if others choose to believe me or not it doesn’t change the spiritual agreement. My spiritual family has told me many times to let go and flow with the divine as everything and everyone is in divine order and timing. I lived out my contract and completed my mission and now my life is mine. So with that I am choosing self preservation over being the female savior; as it is done. I sacrificed so much of myself and my personal ego identity and of course others will not see it or even be able to contemplate this spiritual work. But it doesn’t stop the power of the seed that has been well planted for future generations to reep the rewards of the fruit of it’s maturity, when the divine decides it is time.
My life has become very spiritual in the last few months and that is why I have not written on my blog because I wish to savor it and keep my soul close to my heart. My heart has opened and bloomed towards The Divine Feminine even more as I remain still in the womb of her and her in me. But of course, when I am in my most human moments I do fear the politics of division that are further dividing women and men through chaos and lies, yet I pray to a power that is much higer than the Gods that man’s ego greed has created as they blocked out the sun and the truth from all of us, because I come from them and they tell me they are coming here and they are here; because it is time. They that are of this world will soon face divine judgement; they speak of time being up but they are hiding the truth still as they have hidden the ancient of ancients behind false gods and lies built upon these false gods. There is a power far greater than the ideals of men and this is the true father and mother of creation. And so time is bending in on it’s self and what was old shall be new again and justice; the justice of the divine will be given in the way of the shining light of truth. And this gives me comfort to know that I helped make this way for them to usher in, as I am and we all are a part of this great plan.
Now I am walking into the light and I am being love, as I am seeking love; and now I will emerse in my Divine Feminine Goddess and let the Divine take up the sword.
